The Final Countdown

This is officially the last day of my high school career. In less than two hours I will be released into the world as a high school graduate, supposedly ready to take on anything.

But right now I'm just thinking back on everything I have done within the confines of these walls over the last 4 years. I have laughed, cried, been pissed off, annoyed, sentimental, happy, and downright bored in this building more than any other place, with the exception of my own home. How am I supposed to be able to handle this? How am I supposed to be able to easily say 'peace out' to every person I've taken so long to get to know. My whole life has been spent in a building with these people eight hours of the day, being empathetic, apathetic, and straight up pathetic together.

I relate to everyone here. I know them. I can talk to them.

I'm scared to leave all the people I know and love for a whole new batch that I have to endure small talk and uncomfortable silences with.

I'm scared I will never find anyone I'm as close to as I am to these people. I am just downright scared for this chapter of my life to come to a close.

I have loved these years. They were the best of my life.

Aloha.

So last night I recieved some incredible news.

Well, let me catch you up to speed a bit first.

My mom and I have been on the hunt for a vacation to take this summer. The catch is that every single year we have gone to Jamaica or Mexico and done an all inclusive package. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. These places are beautiful and warm and fun, it just gets a little dull after doing it for like...6 or 7 years in a row.

So this year I put my vote in to stay in the U.S.

Specifically I wanted a trip where we could maybe go hiking or kayaking, I suggested Colorado or Washington. She found a few trips but most were out of our price range.

And then...something amazing happened. Last night I came home and she told me that she had found a trip to..drum roll please...HAWAII!

I couldn't even believe it. If Washington was out of our price range then how was Maui not? But she said that Hawaii was worth it and to consider it my graduation gift. Actually, originally, she said that I had the choice of either being handed $1,200 dollars or taking the trip to Hawaii. I had to mull it over for a second, I mean $1,200 dollars could fund my whole summer and the first half of the semester. But overall I decided I would always regret it if i didn't do this trip.

Soooo moral of the story is...I'm fuckin pumped.

Onto the Second

I already watched the whole first season on dvd last week. Last night I rented the second and watched the whole first DVD. I was up until 1 A.M. Worth it.

The Coming Months

This summer is sure to be a great one. It will be the final summer I have at home with my best friends all in one place with nothing to worry about but having fun and living as much as possible. As is customary every summer, there must be to-do list to accomplish. I mean, there have to be goals set in order to squeeze all the awesomeness possible out of the next three months. Otherwise I may very well just end up sitting inside rewatching Breaking Bad seasons on DVD. Yah, I had to mention Breaking Bad. I want to see how many posts I can nonchalantly squeeze that show into... Anyway, here, presented to you dear followers, is a sneak peek at what my list holds so far. Ta-Da!

1. Get drunk and walk to the playground from Katie's house
2. Lose 20 pounds (I'm already 3 pounds closer)
3. Go golfing, cart rental and all
4. Take a 'get in the car and drive' road trip
5. Sleep out under the stars by the fire
6. Go back to Mesick for some sweet camping
7. Get a perfect kiss
8. Camp in the woods at Blissfest
9. Take the New York Trip without a hitch
10.Read five full novels in the comfort of my hammock
11. To keep a Jason Mraz style outlook
12. Go to Warped Tour
13. Get a tan
14. Not constantly worry about leaving for college
15. To remember to take a breath, and just go with the flow

I'm Addicted

Everytime I even get near a computer with internet access I am compelled to google pictures, videos, and articles concerning Breaking Bad.

I don't know why!

I think I love this show way too much. I have watched every behind the scenes interview, sneak peak, and commentary there is at AMCTV.com, not to mention whatever I could dig up on YouTube and Hulu.

I have found pictures, online articles, and reviews discussing and portraying the acting and careers of the various actors on the show. *cough cough Aaron Paul*

Plus, I have watched and rewatched all the episodes both on DVD and OnDemand.

I have a problem! I need Breaking Bad Anonymous to help me kick this habit.

P.S. Does anyone else see the irony in the fact that I'm hooked on a show about cooking meth?

P.P.S. I just realized how many past posts contain mentions of this show. A fucking lot.

Hey Beautiful

This weekend turned out to be mighty interesting.

A trip to the hookah lounge on Friday evening around midnight brought a boy.

A boy named Andrew who is from Jackson and who told me straight out that he thought I was beautiful. When he was on his way out he asked for and recieved my phone number and we have been texting back and forth since then.

He seems like...not my type. But he also seems like a very nice guy who is confident and persistant if not a little overbearing.

He has requested that I call him tonight to make plans for this week. I don't know what we'll end up doing but I do know that I am excited and nervous.

I hope I'm not a dissapointment or vice versa.

That was my Friday night.

Saturday Sisi, Katie, Jess, Renee, Ethan, Tyler, and Mike all came over to my house to chill and smoke a lot of cigarettes and drink a little. We laughed a lot, talked about and quoted Clerks 2, and spent some time in the hot tub. I did get drunk, but I did not wake up hung over. Score.

Sunday was chill. I did some shit I've been meaning to do all week, though I still haven't addressed my open house invites. I went to Kristi's house to join she and Melissa in a little sun bathing, a walk down her road, and a cermonious burning of their band uniforms.

I also watched the newest episode of Breaking Bad last night.

I love that show like no other, but it bothers me sometimes. I hate how there is just as much focus on what ISN'T happening as what IS. There are often full episodes in which there is no action at all and the entire plot takes place in one room or area. Last night was one of those episodes.

But oh, did I mention? I'm in love with Aaron Paul. A.K.A Jesse Pinkman.

Pickin Up What I'm Puttin Down

Right Now I Love:

-Bright Eyes

-When the sun shows itsself

-Breaking Bad

-Zycam

-Donnie Darko

-Pictures to document things

-My professor vest

-Reading Reading Reading

-Knowing my way around

-Daydreaming

-Eating healthier

-Blocking the world out for a day at home being a couch potato (AKA Breaking Bad marathon)

-Aaron Paul

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Right Now I don't Love:

-Stories that I've already heard

-Snarky remarks

-Rain

-Worrying

-A sore throat and runny nose

-Procrastinating clipping my nails

-Justin Bieber

-All the good stuff being during the rainy weekend ( I.E., Art Festival and Ox Roast Fest)

-Not remembering what I was thinking so hard about 5 seconds ago