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The Slight Silver Lining

So things have been looking up a bit lately. I mean, the feeling is nowhere near what it used to be of freedom and happiness in the summer but at least it doesn't feel so depressing now.
I've been spending the majority of my days worrying about college (which I promised myself I wouldn't do by the way) and sitting around trying to figure out something fun to do.
I feel a weird constant fear of and excitement for college. I will be happy to get a fresh start and get out of this funk I'm in. But I'm also worried that I will never get a boyfriend and that I will flunk all my math and science classes. So basically I'm anxious to see what it will be, but I feel guilty for this anticipation.
I feel guilty because this is the summer after my senior year and I should be spending every minute laughing and living it up instead of spending my days smoking a growing number of ciggarettes and wrapping my brain around the way everything is changing.
Well as for an update on the last couple of weeks, here goes.
I went to Katie's party last saturday night and it was kick ass. It was a pretty good size party, about 30 people, a keg, and 90 cans of beer in a trash can full of ice, and I knew almost everyone so the night really was sweet. Plus this kid who was super drunk out of his mind kept hitting on me and kissing my neck and rubbing my leg. I realize that this kid would have been doing these things to anything that could walk due to the drunken stupor he was in, but no matter the amount of alcohol involved it's still flattering when someone calls you gorgeous. Especially since I very very rarely get hit on.
So that was fun.
Lets see...I made an o.k. amount of money at my open house, about $250 which I am using to buy my ticket for Bliss and stock my dorm.
I'm feeling overwhelmed by the idea of everything I still ahve to get for school. I don't ahve any of my books and I keep procrastianting all the paperwork I need to file for financial aid. blaahhh.
So tonight was chill, I hung out over at Kristi's for a while with Melissa and Renee. We went for a walk and stumbled upon some really pretty trails where Renee proceded to get pooped on by a bird. Which made us all laugh hysterically. We then returned here to watch some Mystery Science Theater 3000 and now here I am. It's probably good that I'm gonna get to bed early tonight because tomorrow I'm going to see Against Me play in Lansing plus there are rumors of a kegger happening somewhere so that may play into it. So I'm off to bed to rest up for what is hopefully a full day tomorrow because I am so over sitting around all day not doing shit.

Here I sit. Another night in my living room watching reruns of breaking bad. Listening to the rain. Wondering where it all went.
I'm excited to leave for college this fall but I have one significant fear. I fear that everyone my age is going to be the same. Partyers who love lil Wayne but don't see the appeal of hendrix or a well written novel. And it drives me fucking crazy.
All I hope is that I don't arrive at college to find a bunch of people competing to see who can get more drunk and who can get the hottest member of the opposite sex into bed. Though from what I hear that is exactly what it may be.

Another Day

So today was good if not a little dull. I spent most of it doing things I didn't really want to do, I.E., running errands, returning movies, retrieving things from the hardware store.

But I also recieved a pleasant surprise when Cathy told me she could get me a free pedicure from her beauty school...fricken score!

It was relaxing and I hung around for much longer then needed talking with her and getting some food from Buffalo Wild Wings.

Earlier today I hit the movie store to fulfill my wishes of watching Always Sunny in Philadelphia, season 3, but they didn't have it! Not one season! So I stood there longingly staring at seasons one and two of Breaking Bad, wishing I hadn't already seen every episode on those discs. Eventually I rented a movie with Brad Pitt that looked much better than it actually was. I watched the whole thing and remained confused and bored by the end, took a very long shower, napped for like 5 seconds then left for Lansing to get the pedicure.

Since I didn't get to bed last night until 2:30 and then had to wake up at 6:30 this morning I dont feel too bad for taking the night off to watch whatever new episode of Intervention is on OnDemand and go to bed early. If there are no new episodes of anything good I will probably play Spyro for a couple hours then hit the hay. Don't judge me.

Fighter of the Night Man!

It is a rainy Michigan day. My yard is being torn to shreds by various cranes and trucks and I only got 4 hours of sleep last night, roughly. So I'm pretty much thinking that today will be a day for renting an entire season of either Always Sunny in Philadelphia or How I Met Your Mother, popping some corn, and snuggling up with a a quilt on the couch all afternoon. I may fall asleep...scratch that I will fall asleep. And it shall be good.

The only tragedy is that this wholesome afternoon of complete couch potato-ism can only begin after I drive my mom's friend to and from the Detroit airport which lies roughly an hour and a half from my home. She hates Bob Dylan, loves Nickelback, and believes that wearing deoderant will legitimately give you cancer.

Lord help me.

Today

I am going on a trip to the beautiful Grand Haven Michigan.

I often forget how beautiful Michigan is until another trip to a quaint lake town like Grand Haven. I love the shops, the people, the water. I love it all.

Come to think of it, I love Michigan in general. This place is the bomb.

I hope this trip will be a good way to relax and clear my head and not worry about what everyone else is doing for a while.