We're here to make you think about death and get sad and stuff!

Hmm so...college has been so many ups and downs for me so far.
One day I'll lose my I.D. and end up in my car searching for it because I don't have the ridiculous amount of money they charge to replace it. The next I'll be happily making trips to 7-11 with Emily for late night slushis and cigarettes.
I don't know if the ups are balancing the downs or not.
Sometimes I feel like it would be easier if I just moved home next year and got an apartment and went to school in Lansing. But then I think, what is there for me at home? All my friends will have moved onto better things by then and I will still be floundering, wondering what it is I'm supposed to be doing with my life.
All I know is that I look forward to the weekends when I go home and I feel obligated when I'm here. I'm happy when I meet people here but I miss the feeling of high school where everything was so carefree and everyone was so incredibly tight knit.
In all honesty I feel like I'm doing something wrong.

Besides that deperessing thought, things have been alright. I applied for a job today and don't have any homework to do tonight which is truly a miracle. I got an awesome package in the mail from home that had bubble containers that look like ice cream in it. I didn't sleep in or skip class and I got my assignments in on time. I drove around in my car for a while smoking cigarettes and listening to indie rock on the radio. I was happy looking at the blue sky and happy listening to Neil Young on my ipod. Plus, the cafeteria had peanut butter pie today. Score.