Back to Reality

Siiiggggh.
One week in Florida and I'm spoiled by that warm sun.
Freedom all the time and lack of responsibility, I dig it.
Buuut, now I'm home. Back to real life and real problems and responsiblity and thinking about college, and leaving home for good, and doing crappy things I really don't want to do. For example, I may possibly have to read an essay I wrote in front of the entire student body and two news crews. Worst nightmare? Pretty damn close.
I would give just about anything to not have to do this, I even considered withdrawing my essay from the contest. But even though I e-mailed the person who is running this 'assembly' and told them in great detail how I wrote private things in this essay and wasn't forewarned I would have to read it to ANYONE let alone the entire school, she has yet to say anything back.
I'm stressed beyond belief about this thing.
I feel like it's fake because it talks about the benefits of not drinking and not smoking pot, and although I never said directly that I don't participate in these things it is implied. Therefore: lie.
Soooo....HELP!