art

I am very confused as to what I want to do with my life right now. I am utterly in love with art history but I also realize how incredibly impractical it is as a major and a career choice. I feel like I want so many things. I want to travel, study abroad, graduate. I want to go to Rome, Paris, Venice. I want to sit in the Louvre and gaze at works by Rubens, Rembrandt, Caravaggio. I feel so completely engulfed and immersed and overwhelmingly swallowed up by art when I see it. I want to spend my life devoted to teaching others about art. I want, more than anything, to indulge this passion of mine. But I just don't think I have it in me to get a masters degree, especially in an area that is so difficult to break into. I wish there was another way to use Art history that didn't require a masters or a PHD. I want art to always be a part of my life, it makes me whole, I come alive when I see a beautiful painting. I light up in a way that nothing else causes. It's cheesy, but it really stirs something inside of me and I don't know how to explain it. But I don't want to let it go. I don't know how to hold onto it. Maybe it's just some stage of my life, a phase I'm going through. Maybe this will pass. But I just fee like I shouldn't take for granted the fact that I am so completely and utterly in love with this.